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I May Like to Hurt Myself...
May. 4th, 2007 11:11 pmSo yeah. I did something stupid today.
I'm riding around on my motorcycle...just going anywhere. I make it to the familiar corner of Semoran and Aloma. My brain really stops working and I get drawn to a familiar apartment complex.
Before I know what I'm doing I'm turning into the apartment complex that Lumberjack lives in. I guess to see if he's still living there...or I don't know what. I just found myself there. So, I'm riding through the complex and make a turn and who do I see...Lumberjack. He's out walking his dogs. I didn't intend to actually see him or want to...It was an insane coincidence.
So, I drive past and make a quick exit out of the apartment complex because of awkwardness and another feeling I didn't expect. When I saw him...it hurt. Looking back on everything now I can admit that I really liked this guy. More than any other man I've met. And it was painful. I didn't think I would feel this way. I don't know why I did that to myself...why I felt a need to even go near that apartment complex. It was stupid and silly.
Luckily...I was wearing my helmet and he couldn't identify me. He also doesn't know I ride a bike. So, he wouldn't have thought twice about me riding around. It was a retarded thing to do. *sigh*
Dan Dan The Production Man...in the remaining on the theme of men who are wankers...didn't call me like he said he would *SUPRISE THERE* and now Friday has come and past and no word from him. Since I knew he was making plans to go see Spiderman tonight, I asked a week ago to be included in those plans, he said alright...and nothing.
I'm feeling pretty shitty and low on confidence right now.
In better knews. I applied to a Nissan Dealership last night and recieved a call around 10am from the dealership and had to sit through some questions and information and now have an interview for Monday!! So, we'll see how that goes. Yay!
I'm riding around on my motorcycle...just going anywhere. I make it to the familiar corner of Semoran and Aloma. My brain really stops working and I get drawn to a familiar apartment complex.
Before I know what I'm doing I'm turning into the apartment complex that Lumberjack lives in. I guess to see if he's still living there...or I don't know what. I just found myself there. So, I'm riding through the complex and make a turn and who do I see...Lumberjack. He's out walking his dogs. I didn't intend to actually see him or want to...It was an insane coincidence.
So, I drive past and make a quick exit out of the apartment complex because of awkwardness and another feeling I didn't expect. When I saw him...it hurt. Looking back on everything now I can admit that I really liked this guy. More than any other man I've met. And it was painful. I didn't think I would feel this way. I don't know why I did that to myself...why I felt a need to even go near that apartment complex. It was stupid and silly.
Luckily...I was wearing my helmet and he couldn't identify me. He also doesn't know I ride a bike. So, he wouldn't have thought twice about me riding around. It was a retarded thing to do. *sigh*
Dan Dan The Production Man...in the remaining on the theme of men who are wankers...didn't call me like he said he would *SUPRISE THERE* and now Friday has come and past and no word from him. Since I knew he was making plans to go see Spiderman tonight, I asked a week ago to be included in those plans, he said alright...and nothing.
I'm feeling pretty shitty and low on confidence right now.
In better knews. I applied to a Nissan Dealership last night and recieved a call around 10am from the dealership and had to sit through some questions and information and now have an interview for Monday!! So, we'll see how that goes. Yay!
